The things I would still like to do:
In this substack I kind of go over some of the things I would like to work on....
Welcome back to the optimized blog and today I go over some of my a typical ruminations. I’ve had conversations with myself and with others the more I realize it the more I realize that I still don’t feel like I’ve accomplished much or if anything notable. On some superficial level I’ve kind of known this but I haven’t really done much to fix it. I haven’t really had a moment of astronomical success or like something that really says I’ve made it. On some level I feel like I am in a state of obscurity and normality that does not reflect of how I want to live.
The weird thing about ADHD is it makes me feel like I want to do exciting things but I find myself in these weird addictive cycles of instant-gratification but I find it incredibly hard to correct that given issue. On some level, I have like 2 me’s inside my head. The one version of myself that is a lazy piece of shit. The other version is this version in me I’ve had since I was like 13 years old who always wanted to do more than the average individual. In this context, their is an inherent contradiction between pleasure and control. Yet, I suspect I am not much different than the average bear in that I think all of us long for higher levels of capability but it’s often stopped by the work required to put in on the given task at hand or the given requirement that lies before us. I can say that medicority is easy and medicority is boring as hell but at the same time expending yourself towards a monumental grind is equally boring and hard. Thus, the main difference between mediocrity is that it’s boring and easy while exceptionalism has to be seen as both boring and hard in the respective context. Thus, this is a fundamental paradox I have yet to resolve. Why? Simple, it’s hard to withstand the chronic boredom of going through that grind to get to X delay gratified goal. It's easily one of my biggest deficits that I still struggle with to this day…But that tangent is for another day…So to atone and to fix for this lack of accomplishment I intend to make for this failure in my mind. In reality, I would like to make my life more interesting.
Life is kind of life a book and in that book their should probably be a bunch of interesting stories and things that are memorable enough that you can brag to other people you’ve either done or accomplished that shows you did things worth doing in your own life. I attribute most of this poor allocation towards not following a strict regimen which had my ADHD under pretty good control. At the same time I would say that my capability and accomplishments have simply not been maximized to the level that I would have liked to achieve. So what are the things that I would like to do and to stop doing going forward? Let’s start
Run 100 mile race 2 50 mile races
Do 1 iron-man
Run Across the united states(doing a forest gump is memorable or no?)
Attain a top 0.01% physique-top 10% physique
Go to a prestigious ivy league
Publish 5-6 books
Travel to south America, live there for a while, travel to europe.
Make an innovative patent or contribution that is leaked to my name
Increase my ability to be consistent without fail to an even higher capacity than my current state
Improve my spanish ability to advanced/level
Learn Piano to a good degree
Get myself out of debt
So these are some basic goals I’ve ascribed to myself that I deem to be important the other thing I’ve contemplated is it possible to build a big family when your trying to do alot of stuff? Honestly, I feel really weird about this. Like how does a guy build a family when he is trying to move mountains and has to work with no motivation 24/7. It’s pretty fucking hard to do honestly. Maybe some people can do it but I don’t feel like I am one of them. The question then comes do you sacrifice family for accomplishment or do you have a family but don’t accomplish very much. I would much rather accomplish stuff and have kids later but at the cost of not being a grandfather is a pretty big deal.
What do you think bro?
Other than that the stuff I added I believe to be accomplishments that are very uncommon, worthy of pursuing and have a good utility value to it. It is best to pick extreme goals that most people are going to try to do. I like bragging rights and when you have those bragging rights people can’t act like your equal if you know your beyond them. I also kind of want to increase my capability by alot but that’s for another post.
Things to stop doing:
Watching youtube. Honestly I’ve thought about this alot and watching most digital media content is bullshit. It almost always leads to you binging it and subscribing to their silly channel which leads you to get hit by affiliate products and creators make money or their dumb ideas. Honestly, I wish I kind of never ended up wasting so much of my life on youtube. TV died but youtube toke it’s place. Ditch this stuff. I actually have found to quit watching youtube to be more difficult than I thought it would be.
Only post on instagram to get followers: Do not like peoples random stories or feeds but be intentional.
Quit ASMR: Been watching this stuff for a while honestly it’s just dumb.
Other moronic addictions video-games, excess caffeine abuse and anything else that creates dependency in general is no good for you.
Eliminate dumbassses who argue constantly: This is a big one, if someone is going to argue about some dumb-shit or is just an idiot just eliminate them. Honestly it makes life so much easier.
Stop using boredom as an excuse to do degenerate shit. I use this excuse all the time.
That’s all I’ve got for now guys…Is their anything I should add to the list
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